I'm Tired.
This writing is featured on Episode 86 of the Walk A Little Slower Podcast.
I’m tired today.
Maybe you can see it in my eyes or in the number of coffee cups that are on my desk.
We’ve got 4 months left until it’s 2024.
September. October. November. December.
Don’t worry, this isn’t a post encouraging you to finish strong.
If anything I hope this post reminds you to take some time to rest.
I turn 34 in a few weeks.
My 14-year-old self would freak out about how old we’ve become.
My 33-year-old self is freaking out about how old we’ve become.
This year has flown by and kicked my butt.
Last week someone told me I was crushing it.
I laughed because I feel like I am being crushed.
Maybe that’s what it feels like to be “crushing it.”
Beneath my skin I feel this pressure to keep up what I started and to keep this dream alive.
Sometimes I forget about trusting God and feel like I have to do it all on my own.
I don’t.
Trying to do it all on your own is exhausting.
And maybe that’s why I’m tired today.
I know, I’ve said that I am tired twice in this writing and I’ll say it once more.
Sometimes all you can say is what’s on your mind.
I hear being honest is always a good place to start.
Most days I find myself believing that I need to do it all and be it all, but that’s just a lie that feels like the truth.
Although I’m feeling the wear and tear of the first 8 months of the year, I’m full to the brim with thankfulness and hope.
Prayers have been answered.
Goals have been achieved.
New dreams have been unlocked.
I was talking with a friend today and they started down a sentence I didn’t like.
They didn’t like it either.
They were saying how they felt behind in life and like everyone was doing better than them.
I know that feeling.
I’ve written an entire book about it that I’ll release one of these days.
I spent most of my 20s feeling behind and like everyone was doing better than I was.
It’s valid to feel that way, but sometimes we are so good at getting caught up in what isn’t rather than being thankful for what is.
And today I am trying to be thankful for what was and what is and what will one day be.
I’m tired today.
But I’m hopeful.
And what a gift it is to be both.
About the Author
Tanner Olson is an author, poet, speaker, and podcaster living in Nashville, Tennessee.
He is the author of I’m All Over the Place, As You Go, Walk A Little Slower, and Continue: Poems and Prayers of Hope.
You can find Tanner Olson’s books on Amazon.
His podcast is The Walk A Little Slower Podcast with Tanner Olson and can be found wherever you listen to podcasts.
Tanner Olson travels around the country sharing poetry, telling stories, and delivering messages of hope.
You can follow Tanner Olson on Instagram (@writtentospeak) and Facebook where you’ll daily find encouraging words of faith and hope.
