i'm just trying to not fall apart

Written to Speak Daily Blog. Written by Tanner Olson.

Written to Speak Daily Blog. Written by Tanner Olson.

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and i’ve stepped past the start
and i’m just trying
to chase after God’s own heart
and i’m just trying to not
fall apart
.. .. ..

The other day I saw a woman with a shirt that in bold letters read

BE BRAVE.

I thought

No thanks. Not today. I’m good.

It’s not easy to be brave.
Being brave is scary.
And exhausting.
And most days I don’t want to be brave.
Let’s be honest, I want to be asleep on the couch hidden from the world.

But something deep within me believes are to be brave.

One of the first spoken word poems I remember listening to was a poem called ‘Manly Man’ by Bradley Hathaway. In his poem he exclaims, “Like David, I wanna be a man after God's own heart.”

When I first heard Hathaway’s
poem I thought, me too.

Me too.

I want to be like David (minus killing people and adultery and all those things, you get it).
I want to be a man after God’s own heart.
I want to live out the words of Jesus.
I want to be a better man than I have been.

But being a man after God’s own heart means I’m no longer chasing after my own.

And being a man after God’s own heart means I’m leaving fear behind for what God has in mind.
It’s surrender.
It’s obedience.
It’s trust.

I want to be a man after God’s own heart.

Popular Christian Spoken Word Artist Tanner Olson of Written to Speak

Tanner Olson is a writer, speaker, poet, spoken-word artist, and creator of Written to Speak.
He created Written to Speak to share hope and announce love. 

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